thinking hard

Thinking hard what to  write. I can start from the sensations I am feeling in my body. That would be easy, I tell myself. The way I am sitting on my chair. The way I am hugging the front legs of my wooden chair with my bare feet. I feels cold. But only  for the first couple of  minutes. My body heat has warmed the wooden legs which are no more cold.

I am trying to be still, so still and quiet that  I intend to listen my beating heart. A few moments pass by, I am focused on listening to my beating heart. And yes! I can listen to beats. Only the thuds of my heart inside the  body. All thoughts cease to exist. Only the thuds.

I tried to listen in with my headphones on. It feels easier to listen with the headphones. Perhaps the cancellation of external sounds helped.

There has been a constant internal dialogue with myself to start writing. Thoughts of writing for 10 minutes every morning, even if its a few sentences. It's been a constant struggle just to start. I do write some days as part of daily writing practice which is more of expressing my gratitude for all the things I am blessed with in my life. Many times I think I should start writing blog posts to me, for me. Start capturing my thoughts based on observations and people interactions.